I can dominate a room when filled with the spirit of God, and can
entertain or preach to a crowd, whatever. I have lived for ten years on
100 acres on a deserted beach south of San Felipe in the Baja in Mexico on the
Sea of Cortez, in a beach house where I am now overlooking the beach. I am also
an amateur astronomer. With my fellow man, I mainly try to convince them of the
truth so they can be my friends in the New Covenant. My greatest desire is the
will of the Father be done on earth as it is in heaven and his Kingdom come on
earth as it is. I love debate and engagement in politics and religion. I know
that I know more than they do, for I was caught up and have seen for myself and
a man can learn more by gazing into heaven for five minutes than by reading all
the books ever written. And I gazed in rapt stupified amazement for forty-five
minutes or an hour and saw and heard things which are not lawful to be uttered.
Once shortly after this, in the army at Ft. Sam Houston, a voice spoke over my
head which shook the ground on which two sergeant also stood. No one can match me
in debate in the world. I have the ability to immediately see the weakness of an
argument and go for the throat, as it were, driving my opponent, who is usually
a fool, into a corner in any kind of mental contest. I have a genius IQ as once
measured. But with women I am overcome, I become a stutterer and stammerer, a
fool, with eyes downcast at their beauty, I am overcome. I am gentle and kind
and deferential to them, their defender. I love them so much! I am a warrior. I
am not imposing in appearance, but am a Nazarite, which is a vow not to allow a
razor to cut my hair or beard and women say I have "nice shoulders". I am also a
fighter by necessity to in the past, to defend my person. Once I had to take an
enemy down with a "rear naked choke" hold which I did easily and could have
killed him and another time my concubine set a weight lifter on me who said, "I
will give you to the time I count to ten to be out of here". Well he counted to
ten and I was still standing in front of him and he then ran on me and I hit him
the sweetest left I have ever felt in my life, it felt so sweet and liquid, not
the characteristic pain on the knuckles (the Lord was with me) and knocked him
on his ass on the floor, and he just sat there blinking, and couldn't believe
it. So he got up and ran on me again with the same result. But mostly I am
gentle and am merciful and generous to a fault and desire to save souls, not
destroy them. My anger against the wicked and depraved men and injustice comes
out in my writing. I love watching boxing and ultimate fighting championships.
Most men give me respect when I meet them face to face.
Personally I am studious. I write books. Words are lovely especially when
making love to women, they are so exquisite, such beautiful creatures, words
fail me. I become a stammering tongue-tied fool with women with my eyes cast
down at their loveliness. They are my great weakness. I fall in love and am hurt
by them often because I am not predatory, though I feel I could love them
forever. I love poetry, especially Hamlet and before my first vision, I really
was into Tolstoi and Dostoevsky. But the most beautiful poetry are the words of
Eloheim. My activities to a great degree are mental, though I like to ride on
the beautiful beach here in my dune buggy south to Puertocuedas, passing endless
strings of campos with my Rottweiler. While living in the Rocky mountains (I was
a mountain man for ten years moving my camp from place to place) I had a
beautiful Appaloosa horse named Chancey who I learned to ride bareback like the
Indians by pressing my knees together. She wanted to run, so I let her. I loved
to thunder up behind some lefty mountain biker and he would look up over his
shoulder as Chancey who easily overtook him with her thundering hooves. It was
so funny. She would also go straight up the mountain. What a wonderful horse! We
bonded, she could read my mind and as the thought entered my mind she responded.
I will always love her.